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Mon, Sep. 22nd, 2003, 12:15 am

Well, I am feeling not well. I woke up this morning at 10 and felt like crap. I decided to do some work and watch TV. I talked to my parents on the phone......I wish I didn't feel like crap, it really sucks. My head feels so heavy and I can't stand it. So I did work and then I fell asleep and then went upstairs and slept in my bed from 3-7pm!!! I felt a little better after all the sleep. I then watched TV and ate peas and broccoli and finished up my homework. I am now quite ready for bed. I am exhausted and not the happiest person. I wish I had some more interesting things to write but my life is not very interesting right now. I'm just sick and unhappy and want that mood to improve. Peace out!

Sat, Sep. 20th, 2003, 06:37 pm

WOAH NELLY! I have not written in this journal in about 6 months. I hope to change that. I recently read my journal from my freshman year when I was pledging Phi Mu Alpha and it was really cool to look back on the things that I did. I hope this can be like that......so anyways... Senior year of college, I can't even believe it. It's so weird because I remember so much about my freshman year, I remember the way my room first smelled when I walked into it and I remember what things looked like all around me. I can't believe this is my fourth year here, it has been a great time...I am really into Phi Mu Alpha this semester and I think it's because of our pledge class, they are all really awesome guys and I hope to get to know each of them better. Gene Paul, Colin, Matt, Jerome and John are their names. Gene Paul is my grandlittle so that's pretty cool, I never thought I would be a grandbig while I was still here. We had an awesome carwash today and we raised over $300 for us, SAI and the Potsdam High School Music Dept.
I am obsessed with my house. I think it is the coolest thing ever, it was well worth the fight it took to get it. I really love everything about it. Except the washer is broken right now, that's not the coolest thing ever. My classes are going great because I am only taking 15 credits this semester. It's so weird to have such a light load, I am still really busy however with PMA, CSA and Opera. I am in two of the Opera Scenes, in one of them I play a woman, I am not thrilled about this but very excited to be able to do a lot of acting. It is my passion above everything else, I also love teaching but this is more important to me right now. I am doing pretty good in theory 2 and I hope to keep it up, I have a tutor- Pat and he says that I know all the basics and the theoretical part of theory but I just need to practice it so it becomes like second nature. I sang in studio this week and it was not my most impressive performance but oh well.......it can only get better from there. I figured I would start writing in this journal again because I enjoy reading other people's journals and I think it's fun. Tomorrow I pretty much have nothing to do except for some homework. I am going to go wash my clothes tonight at the laundrymat in town. I can do some reading for literacy while I am there. I love music so much, I always have to listen to it, right now I am constantly listening to The Last Five Years, Nine and of course Audra McDonald who is my all-time favorite singer. My room is a mess, I should clean it tomorrow. I can't wait until they finish our porch and we can sit out there, it is stupid but it's kindof exciting. I can't really think of anything else that is new right now........We have apples and I love apples. I am also glad to be friends again with Jennifer Judge. She is a very important person in my life and I love her. I am so glad I walked all the way over to Bowman the first day freshman year to meet her. Her voice made me laugh so much, all those crazy Long Island people. I hope the island floats away.......either that or becomes engulfed by the sea.......Remember when we used to be best friends? and your mom made those cookies??? and we sat out on the trampoline and looked at stars?? If these apply to YOU, let me know cause I always say it to people and they look at me like I am crazy. So if it actually does apply to someone out there, I can say it to them and not sound so nuts......make sense?? Ok, good, I am peacing out! Later skaters!

Mon, Mar. 17th, 2003, 10:46 pm

WOW! I have not written in here in about 5 months! I have been busy but not that busy so there's no excuse. Right now I am watching the movie White Oleander. It's pretty good so far. During the movie I have been cleaning and re-arranging my room. I like the new setup, my beds are perpindicular and it's fun. I have been waiting since my audition last Sunday to hear from Lake George Opera, I have been constantly checking my email to see. This isn't right, they should let you know either way. The other tenor that sang in the chorus with me last year told me that he hasn't heard yet either. I would really like to sing with them again since I had a lot of fun and learned a lot!! I've been kind of lathargic and lonely lately but I'm not crying about it, I just wish my mood would change. People always think I'm happy though so I guess it doesn't matter to anyone but me. I'm really looking forward to spring break in three weeks. My father and I are going to see Life x3 at the Circle in the Square theatre on Broadway the first Saturday of my break and then I told Price Chopper that I can work for the rest of it.......it's money and I do need that!! I am in rehearsals right now for The Mikado here at school. I am in the Chorus and it's a lot of fun, it really is my favorite thing, performing. I've been thinking a lot about the way I act in real life, why am I so crazy?? Sometimes I understand and sometimes I don't. I like the way I am, I like when people think I am crazy, why would I want to be "normal"? It's not very much fun! I love having fun, being fun, and laughing more than anything!!!!!! I love the way that I can make people laugh, I do it by making a fool of myself- it's great. That makes me laugh myself. I am going to finish watching the movie and cleaning my room now. I will be sure to post again soon!!!
:-) Peace out!

Sat, Oct. 5th, 2002, 03:57 pm
HAHAHA I am so crazy

Hey everyone. I know it's been almost 2 weeks, but I have been busy. Not too much is new. I'm going home in a week and I'm really excited. My level is this Wednesday!!! I have a run through tomorrow night in Snell Theater at 8pm. I have a lot of fun here at school! Last night it was sooo windy so I went outside and yelled and went nuts. I told people to "save yourself!!!" I did this because it was so windy out. I know it doesn't make sense. I haven't been listening to much music lately for some reason. I have some awesome friends here at school!!! My favorite new friend is Christina P. A "first year" student down the hall. She is amazing, funny, smart, pretty, she's on a full scholarship, vocal performance AND education major AND she's from Schenectady!!!! YEAH! We have an ongoing lunch date at 11 on Monday, Wednesday and Fridays. It's a lot of fun, she's so nice and a great listener. I have great times with Winkler, he's so funny and we do some outrageous things, I think we should spin in the hallway sometime soon. Then there's Jen, my best friend. I love her so much, even though she tells me I don't when she's drunk. She has ALWAYS been there for me and I can't say that about anyone else in my life outside of my family. She confuses the hell out of me but I guess I am used to it. She's very insecure about a lot of things and that makes me upset sometimes. We fight but we still love each other. I am lucky to find people I have fun with. OHHHHHHH Last weekend!!!! It was so much fun. Emily, Winkler, Chris, Annette, Mary-Jo, Glenn and I played games in Annette's room starting at 2:30 in the morning and we played until 7 in the morning and then went to breakfast at Carolines!! It was so much fun, I can't remember the last time before that I laughed so hard. My classes are going great although I withdrew from Spanish because it sucks. I just got back from a 3 hour seminar on Body awareness and I found it very interesting. There is another one tomorrow and I will be there. Today I am just going to chill and watch TV and do laundry. I'm glad I had a chance to write something in here. I'm going now. Peace out! BYE!!!!

Mon, Sep. 23rd, 2002, 12:47 am
mmmmmhmmmmm, my ear is full of pressure

Hey everyone. I'm in a calm mood right now and I don't know why I was just very hyper earlier this evening, I guess I'm a little tired. I had a really nice day today. We started the pledging process for our 3 probationary members. They are all awesome, I like them a lot. We went to brunch after the ceremony and we had a lot of laughs. So I sat here for a while and then I decided to finally go to Massena to get a dry erase board and anything else that looked enticing. BUT!! I get out to my car and notice that there are about 59482139 bees on my car or around it. I said "What the fuck?" It was crazy, I called Winkler and he came out and assisted in the entry of the vehicle. It was funny, this tree basically shit on my car and whatever it was, the bees were really attracted to it. So I entered through the trunk and drove directly to the car wash and got most of the crap off my car. I then drove to Massena and went shopping. WOW, great story huh? Anyways, I had a big fight with Jen this week and that was really dumb. I'm glad it's over. I had a nice night and it was relaxing I feel good right now. I saw 1 hour photo with Winkler on Friday and it was a great movie, very weird though. I then rented Death to Smootchy again with Robin Williams. He is such an incredible performer. Much like AUDRA MCDONALD. That woman's voice does things to me I can't explain. I don't know what would happen if I ever met her. This week shouldn't be very busy, just the usual stuff. I have listened to Audra's new CD about 100 times since I got it on Friday and I wrote a semi-review, semi-shrine for it on amazon.com but it probably won't be up for a couple of days. I LOVE THIS CD!! I love all her CDs though so I don't know. My level IS on October 9th. This is my level B and if I pass it, I get to perform a half-hour recital. I'm really looking forward to it because I really enjoy singing my pieces. Ok I should get ready for bed, it's getting late. I still have some reading to do before I go and dream. This took me a while to write all of this. I'll write more later. BYE!!

Tue, Sep. 17th, 2002, 09:53 pm

I just read my last enrty. I removed it!! I am nuts. Maybe now people understand what goes through my head. I have so many thoughts all the time. I just kind of wrote what I was thinking as it came to my head without editing. Today wasn't bad. I slept late because I was up until 5 am. Bad stuff happened last night and I wish I could go back and change it. That's always my problem. I always wish I can go back and change what I messed up. What I need to do is not mess up in the first place. I need to be conscious and alive. I just got back from P&C and it was nice because I went alone and just thought a lot. There are so many people in this world that I really care about. Some don't even know it. I just wish I was a better person, sometimes I feel I am a good person, I try to follow rules, act polite, do good things without expecting a reward. I just have so much hurt inside me and I don't know why. I just wish I could be the person that people think I am. Like always happy and laughing, I wish that was the real me. Why do I act the way I do, people get annoyed most of the time. There are those few people, however, who really like my personality and demeanor. They like me for me, they know who I am. I love those people. They motivate me to live. I am going to go do some homework and chill out for a while. BYE!

Mon, Sep. 16th, 2002, 11:16 pm

Hello. My name is Michael. I have not written on here for a LONG time. Not as long as some people that don't write but a long time. I haven't written once since I have been to school. So much stuff I could be sharing but haven't. What's my deal? I can only write for a couple of minutes though. HAHA I'm so nuts. I have been having so much fun since I got back!! I miss not being here, but I do love being home. I have a great time with my best friend Jen and my friend Mike. Like when Mike and I drive around and talk to drunk people and say "Greetings walkers of the night." We get the most awesome responses!!!! Some people laugh, some swear, some are just STUPIFIED!!!! It's so much fun. We also bought a bag of ice and had no use for it. So I walked around the dorm and asked everyone I saw, but no one wanted it. Long story short, I played wall ball with the ice while winkler fell asleep in the lounge. My sweatshirt smelled like campfire and was soaked from the melting ice!! It's a crazytown story. I need to be serious about work and really not get behind. I like all my classes and this is the first semester I have ever said that! I am hopefully doing my level on October 9 and I really want to be prepared. I hope I learn all of the music soon!!!! I have some homework to do now so I'll be going. I will definately write in here more often though!!!! Write me a comment on what you think of my thoughts.BYE!

Sat, Aug. 24th, 2002, 09:33 pm

I haven't written in this in a while. A lot has been going on but this will be brief. I finished working on Monday night and couldn't be happier. I went to NYC with my parents to see the funniest play ever "Noises Off" and had an amazing time. I've had an amazing time every trip I've made this summer to NYC. I miss everyone at school and am excited about coming up tomorrow morning. I was supposed to go today but I decided to go to Great Escape on Friday and didn't get everything done so I'm going crazy packing now. It's really COLD outside and it would not stop raining today, I hope it's nicer tomorrow for the trip. That's it, I will write much more when I'm at school and don't have so much to do. BYE!

"You beat my dog, you eat my frog, you drink up all my gin. You break the rules, you pee in pools and you never tell me where you've been."

Mon, Aug. 12th, 2002, 01:37 am
blocka blocka

Hey there, how goes it??? I just got home from work. I do nothing but work, sleep and eat. Well not really but I am trying to get you to feel bad for me. I had an amazing time yesterday with my parents and my brother Chris. We went to NYC in the morning and ate lunch at Ray's Pizza which has great New York Pizza. Then we walked around midtown and saw The Tale of the Allergists Wife at 2. That show was hilarious!!! It stinks that it's closing in another month. It starred Rhea Perlman, Marrilu Henner and Richard Kind. It took a while for my mom to wait in line to go to the bathroom after the show so we were the last people to leave the theatre and we didn't have dinner reservations until 5:30 so we waited to see if we could see some of the actors by the stage door. No one came out for like 20 minutes so most of the people left. Finally right as we were ready to leave Richard Kind comes out and it's my family and one other lady there. 10 minutes ago a huge crowd! He singned my program and took a picture with myself and my brother. It was sooooo cool, I'm gonna put the picture up here when i download it from my camera, he was such a nice guy and very modest. I love his work!! I've seen every episode of Mad About You and many episodes of Spin City and he's such a great actor!!!! So then we had dinner at this big shot steak restaurant called Frankie and Johnnie's. It was good food but crazy-talk prices. I didn't pay so I guess I am over it. We then went to times square and to the Toys R Us store and it's huge!!! Chris had a great time and I had some fun! Then we went to see The Phantom of the Opera and we walked down 44th Street and there are so many other shows right near by- Into the Woods, Chicago and The Producers were all there. It was so neat. I want to be in a broadway show someday!!!! (haha...right) The show was very well performed and the special effects were captivating. I had hoped that we would be seeing Lisa Vroman, who went to my school but found out she left a couple of weeks ago. The main actress was quite good and the music was phenomonal. It was typical Lloyd-Weber with so many repeated melodies and recit style lines throughout, although my favorite is still Sunset Boulevard. We then drove home and made great time both ways. Today we went to Proctors theatre to see About a Boy and we all enjoyed it, it's a very smart and funny movie. I then worked all night and now I am about to go to bed.....only to wake up to another 8 hour day of work tomorrow starting at 12 noon. I can't wait.....Only one more week and then I get some days off right before back to school!!!! BYE!

"Ever since this world began
there is nothing sadder than
the one-man woman
looking for the man that got away"

Thu, Aug. 8th, 2002, 11:32 am

I have not written in a long time!!! I have been working non-stop and I also took a mini-vacation. My family and I went to South Carolina and Georgia for a few days this past week to pick up stuff from my brother who has an internship there. He's coming home next week and we had to get some of his stuff. It was a great time, we did so much fun stuff. We went shopping for clothes and shoes and saw Austin Powers 3 in an awesome theater. My mom and brother and I went to the World of Coca-Cola museum in Atlanta and got a tour and a lot of soda!!!!! It was really cool. We also visited the Atlanta underground where they have a lot of different shopping and venues. It was nice to have a break from work, even if we had to drive 14 hours both ways to get there!!! Every single exit (almost) after Penn. there was a Waffle House. These "diners" are EVERYWHERE I can't believe it. We went to the mall of Georgia and had dinner one night and we went to the Lindt candy store and my brother Chris and I got to put as many chocolate truffles into this container which was supposed to fitt 45 all for $11.95. We fit 90 of those things in there, a bunch were squished though!!! I don't think that mattered so much in the end because most of them melted when we left the container in the car overnight!!!! Oh well it was fun to see how many we could get in there. Chris saw this really neat skateboard park at the mall and he also jumped on this trampoline that had a harness and bungee cords attached to it. I taped it with my video camera. So that's about it for the trip, besides my brother Dan acting like an asshole to his family. My Dad and Chris and I bought a ton of fireworks at this on stop on the way home. It's so cool I remember when I was young and we used to go to Myrtle Beach and get fireworks there and I haven't bought any in a long time. After the trip I ordered a new laptop from Dell. I really want a laptop because I can bring it around with me if I need to and they just seem cooler!!! I also got a digital camera which is really cool. I have to work today from 2:30-10 and then tomorrow 11-7:30 grrrrr. I will be happy to leave Price Chopper for a while. I have to start getting ready to go back to school. I really miss having someone close to me at home but oh well. I don't have enough time to initiate or establish new friendships right now. When I get back to school I have to focus on school much more. I need to do well in all my classes! I am excited about our trip to NYC to see shows in two days, it's going to be a lot of fun. I have to do some work on my songs like my french and oratorio. I also need to prepare my audition pieces for the Opera. I hope that people who read this are doing well and find it slightly interesting. If not, I guess you shouldn't read it. I enjoy writing here and then reading it later. It's theraputic. I am going to go clean my room now. BYE!

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